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Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Dear Virtual Diary | #MyGreatestVictory

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)

One of my greatest victories was when I started to love myself. I know, it sounds so easy to do, but at least for me, it wasn't. It was the hardest. For me, giving love to others – may it be my family, my friends, a stranger or my enemy – is somewhat easy, but giving myself the love that I never thought I deserve wasn't a piece of cake, especially when I started to have an acne breakout and when I stepped in the university life...

I always look down on myself; 'til one day, I just saw myself as my greatest basher — the one who never believes in me, the one who doubts in me, and the one who hates me.

"You are not good enough!"
"You are ugly!"
"You don't fit in!"
"Whatever you do, people will never like you."
"You will always be an option!"
"You will never succeed!"
"You are fake!"

I get scared and hurt a lot of times when people look down on me, but I never realized that I was the one who utters such hurtful words to myself.

BUT THANK YOU JESUS CHRIST!

I was freed from this bondage of self-hatred. Finally, I started to see myself worthy... THROUGH THE EYES OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER! The journey to self-love wasn't easy, and I know I am still on my way, but with sincere prayer, child-like faith, a positive community and Jesus Christ! I already claim that I overcame it! I am victorious!

Share your greatest victory with the hashtag ‪#‎MyGreatestVictory‬

With grace and love,

Mirasol Grace

My Open Letter: To My Dearest Donita | 081116

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_X0d1DnnKdk

Same day last year, one of my bestest friend flew to California. It was really heartbreaking to know that the days that would follow aren't going to be the same again. Many things had already happened within a year for her in that place, and for me in here. So, because I miss her very much, and I know she does feel the same way too, I made something for her.

To My Dearest Donita Part One & Part Two ✨

I hope this will help her every time she misses home. Regina and I love you so much, my baby girl

In addition, here are some cool photos by the amazing Isa Bernardo:

I love this photo. It just show that I will always be here for her. :)

Pak! Ganern!

Sorry, but I had to post this. (Ganda ko kaya here LOL)

Twinning With My Bestest Friend

It is usually the other way around HAHHAHAHHA

I hope you'll watch the videos in HD! :)

With grace and love,

Mirasol Grace

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Dear Virtual Diary | Hating Myself Pt.1

"Overcoming Acne & Skinny Body Through Jesus Christ"

Pretty much the bios on all of my SNS accounts. However, I realized that the only thing that I should get rid of is the acne, and not my body. I've been wanting to have a body shape that is curvy and that is not petite (or skinny). I always thought that there are something wrong with my body and with me... that I needed to eat more hamburgers, have more frappes or have anything that is full of carbohydrates.

Everyday, people will come to me like,

"Hey, are you okay?"
"You are so thin!"
"You should eat more!"
"Are you on diet? Don't go on diet."
"Don't starve yourself!"
"You don't look good if you're skinny."
"Are you trying to be like the model in the magazines?"
"Take care of yourself!"

So, I hated myself.

I will constantly ask my college best friend, Kathleen Kleine, if I already looked bad or worse, looked malnourish, and she will always say that I looked great and that there is nothing wrong with me.

Getting Torn

As all of my family and close friends know, I have the greatest appetite ever. I used to eat almost everything on my plate, but when I started to have the acne breakout, I began to limit myself a bit from foods, especially with dairy foods, oily foods, chicken and seafood. I really do not know what to do. As much as I wanted to focus on gaining weight, I was concern also about my skin condition. I was really torn apart.

Thanks to my college best friend, I started to come up with an alternative. She persuaded me to go healthy by eating fruits and veggies every time, and by working out. That's why I started going to the gym, and also, I started to eat almost 10 standard cups of rice a day. I really thought I was gaining weight each day, but it turned out the opposite. I still had no curvy body, and I was getting skinnier. In short, my body still looks like a body of a 13-year-old girl... only by that time, it was a toner body of a 16-year-old girl.

Again, people will come up to me like,

"Hey, you're getting skinnier and skinnier."
"You should stop going to the gym!"
"You should take care of yourself!"

So, I hated myself even more.

Bottled In

All this time, I was not happy. I did not want to have a skinny body, but a body like Marilyn Monroe's, Iskra's, Ms. Universe 2015 Pia Wurtzbach's, and FHM's most sexiest Filipina 2016 Jessy Mendiola's. I wanted to have a curvier body, or even just a chubby body because for me, it was the most beautiful type of body for a woman.

But at the same time, I felt that I have no rights to get upset of having a skinny body, because some people wants to have this type of body as well.

These people will be like,

"Your body is like those models."
"Your body fits any kind of trendy clothes."
"You should love your body."

I know that all of these people wanted the best for me, and they were all just trying to help me through the words they thought would help, but I couldn't stop it from decreasing my self-esteem, and it was difficult for me so I just bottled everything in.

Realization

But thank Jesus Christ, He made me realized something, and at first, it wasn't easy to believe and especially, to apply; but when I did, it gave me unexplainable peace and healing. These beautiful facts that I realized was that I am

FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY CREATED BY THE LORD AND ONLY FOR THE LORD;

and that even if I have a skinny body, and regardless of what everyone thinks of me, I am beautiful in my own way because God makes no mistakes. All He wants me to do is to love myself, and to continue my journey to be the best version of myself because I know that will bring glory to Him.

With grace and love,

Mirasol Grace

Monday, July 25, 2016

Late Night Thoughts | This Was What My Mind Has Always Said

Re-Blogged From My Old Tumblr Account

This one was written when I was in my Freshmen year.
It is sad that I have been tormented by the pain that I caused to someone else.
Believe me, it hurt me as much as it hurt you.

So, here it goes...

11:11PM | Sa mga ganitong oras…

Marami nang napasok sa isipan ko,
Pero may isang bagay na talagang ayaw akong palayain.
Gabi-gabi, hindi ako nilulubayan ng taong nasa loob ng isip ko.
Laging pinamumuka sakin lahat ng masamang bagay na nagawa ko;
Lalo na sa isang partikular na tao.

Sabi ng utak ko:

“Baka kaya walang magmahal sayo ng tapat –
Baka dahil sinaktan mo na kasi ng sobra
ang nag iisang taong pwedeng magmahal sayo ng totoo.”

Sabi ng utak ko,
Wag na daw akong umasa;
Wala na raw talagang magmamahal,
at tatanggap sa kung sino o ano talaga ako.
Kahit ano pa daw ang gawin ko:
magpaganda, magpatalino, magpakabait,
magpakaplastik o magpakayaman…
Wala na raw.
Tapos na ang laban.
Pinatalo ko na raw.

Wag na akong umasa.
Hindi na ako karapat dapat mahalin,
at wala ng magtiya-tiyaga sakin.

Friday, July 22, 2016

Late Night Thoughts: Irony

Photo from Tumblr

Note: This is only a re-blog from my Tumblr post on 2013.

Why am I so stupid? There are people who are willing to risk everything for me, to face their fears for me, to do silly things for me and to do what they don’t want to do just for me to be happy. But. But what is the reason why did I never choose from these wonderful people? Why do I always look after to someone who never looked at me?

There’s this guy who have been waiting since our elementary times. He is a handsome, rich and good guy who have always been a fan of Death Note like me. He became so firm for the past five years (I know that we were too young when he started falling in love with me) but that was the truth. He was there when I needed him. When I needed someone to cry on because of another guy, he was still present even though it was so obvious that he was being jealous. He always gave what I wanted to have; food, books and collections but those things never change what I really feel. The truth is:I DON’T AFFORD TO LOSE HIM BUT I DON’T WANT TO HAVE ANY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM. I JUST WANT HIM TO MY BESTEST BEST FRIEND.

There is this another guy who have been waiting for me too. He’s a good-looking, God-fearing and smart guy. I met him in a not-so-common place, in a sari-sari store. We became close because we share the same religious belief. At first, I never really liked him because the one that I had a crush on was his younger brother. Day passed, we were actually being so close that made me fall to him (but it was just an infatuation). I always think that the person who will have his heart is so fortunate but I never thought that I will be that person. He was so caring and understanding as a special friend. Only as friends. I never wanted to hurt him because he was the luck that I had whenever I have my trials. But staying by his side would be selfishness and leaving him would be fair. To be honest, I always feel some kind of guilt whenever I am with him. I always think that I’m the reason why he’s sad, why he broke up with his girl friend and why he stays up late just to do my works. I really feel sorry.

The truth is that...

I AM SO CONFUSED. I DON’T KNOW IF THIS IS LOVE OR JUST AN INFATUATION. HENCE, I AM SETTING HIM FREE. I DON’T WANT HIM TO WAIT BECAUSE IT JUST GIVES ME BURDEN AND PAIN. IF THIS WAS REALLY LOVE, IT WOULD BE STILL OK.

Now, I am liking someone else who never deserved my love. It really gives me pain, seeing them hurt. I feel that I don’t have the rights to fall in love because there are people who’s waiting for me.
I am really sorry! So from here, I am declaring that the waits are no more recognized.

ANGUISH.

DOLEFULNESS.

SORRY.

[still writing...]

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Dear Virtual Diary | #ScarredYetHealed

[still writing...]

Polla Shares: The Book of Maica

The Book of Maica is one of my favorite books in the Holy Bible, simply because it looks like that bedtime story that you would love to read to your babies – short and interesting. I used to read novels of Daniel Steels, and novels like my favorite, My Name Is Memory, but I thought why not entertain myself with those short books in the Bible like Hosea, Amos, Maica, etc. – not only I will be entertained, but also I will learn a lot of things that will definitely help me on my growth as a person and as a child of God. So, I did.

Morever, since I am learning MANY SIGNIFICANT LESSONS from it, I thought "why not share it with the people that I love?" So, I came up with an idea of while sharing it in my church, I am going to post it here on my virtual diary.

I pray that God will lead His people more through this story.

[still writing...]

Late Night Thoughts: My Biggest Fear

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MY BIGGEST FEAR POETRY

Dear Virtual Diary: #Happy18thPolla | 011715

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BTS VIDEO

Dear Virtual Diary: #SmartMusicLive | 071016

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VIDEO BLOG

Monday, August 17, 2015

My Open Letter: To The Guy Who Has Five Sunflowers

My favorite part of the movie, "Love, Rosie"

To The Guy Who Has Five Sunflowers:

Hi! Uhm. . . I guess you are laughing by now because of the realization of this weird fact--- that someone was already thinking of you when you were either in your cloud-nines or in your most random times (i.e. drinking coffee at 7 AM, watching some late night shows, [idk]). I know I know, it is a bit absurd and hopeless-romantic kind of thing, but it is true - I was thinking about you. A lot.

It has been years of wandering this world without you, wondering if I would ever get to meet someone like you. There are times that I wished you were here with me, despite the fact that I haven't met you nor known you. I often soaked myself in imagining what you look like or what you do at the moment. It is a bit foolish to think, but honestly, those were my late-night thoughts or the subject of my procrastination. Every time I am seeing young couples or old lovers, I always ask where you are? Are you - at the present time - waiting for me, thinking about me, or having fun with the girl that sooner, will be your ex. *evil laugh*

OK, change topic.

Five sunflowers--- I assume you are curious about that. There are no questions about the flower since every one knows that sunflower is a part of my identity. I adore it very much, and I hope you are aware of that; however, why five? Simple because [duuuhhh!] I am weird and I want it to be interesting, but no, seriously, there are reasons. I want it five because I want to know if you are willing to know me, and I guess you are getting my point; well if you really wanted me, you'd investigate and then you'd end up reading this, right? I want it five because these sunflowers will stand for your five promises to me. By giving it to me, you promise that you'll accept me and my flaws; that you'll support me and my dreams; that you'll take care of me, as well as the persons that I love; that you'll guide me through life; and that you'll respect me, my decisions and my family. Just remember that these promises are not mandatory, it is up to you if you'll live with it or not, but I still hope and pray that you will.

So, before you buy me 'five' sunflowers [I hope you already did] because you have read this and have realized that you might have given me just a couple or more sunflowers - not five - I want to say "thank you"! I know that you already know that, but I just want to make you feel that I do. I really do. I am chuffed profoundly for all the monochromatic times that you would just smile or look at me with love in your eyes, and everything would become lighter. Thank you for showing your love to me each day - from the simple moments like giving me flowers (picked wild flowers) at random times or cooking for me [I told you I am not fond of cooking since then] to the outlandish, extravagant things like traveling with me, and getting hype when I am hype, sad when I am, weird when I am like one - and those things, I labeled as outlandish, for I know how hard it is, my dear, but you are rocking it each freaking time. Lastly, I am grateful, for you have been helping me to pursue God more and more. You have fulfilled my prayer about my own dream guy - a "lover" of Jesus, pursuer of dreams and co-traveler of this exciting, beautiful world.

I hope that the reality of me being in loved with you even before I met you and that I still have butterflies whenever I am thinking about us, bring you inspiration to fight each day with me, darling.

I love you with every bone in my body---

Forever and for life time your partner,

Paula Grace Perez (insert your surname here)

Friday, July 31, 2015

20 Facts Everyone Should Know About Me

Five Basic Infos About Paula Grace:

1. My true name is Paula Grace Perez.
2. My nickname is Polla (Pol-La) because Paula and Pau are too common.
3. I am a pure Filipino, and I looooove it.
4. I am 18 years young and free.
5. I am a Preacher's daughter.

Five Basic Infos/Facts About Mirasol Grace:

6. Mirasol Grace is my pen name.

7. Mirasol means 'sunflower' in Spanish.

8. Mirasol Grace's life is full of hope, truth and optimism.

9. Mirasol Grace's instagram account is @mirasolgrace [follow her pwetty pls]

10. Mirasol Grace is the gypsy, boho, mermaid, fairy and vintage side of Polla.

10 Interesting Facts About Me:

11. I adore sunflowers immensely - I can live with them forever.

12. I dream to go to Los Angeles someday - I always get butterflies whenever I'm thinking bout it.

13. I like taking videos in time-lapse, idk why.

14. I am unpredictable. [yes so if you love me, bear with it hahaha]

15. I have the worst eyesight ever. [jk but I can no longer see things approx 10 ft away]

16. I don’t know myself actually.

17. My personality is so strong that I often sound sarcastic, unintentionally. [sorry 'bout that]

18. I was bullied by a professor and a group of people when I was in Senior High School. [yep sad maybe they didn't know but wtvr, I already forgave them]

19. I don't know what I want in the future except a family like Jefferson Bethke's. [He is one of my inspirations]

20. Jesus Christ is my everything - that pretty sums up what He is to me.

Hi Beautiful Earthlings!

I hope you enjoyed knowing me as Mirasol Grace and Paula Grace, please tune in for more posts about my life and errthung in my brain and heart.

If you have any questions, ask me or drop a comment on the comment section, at the right side of this blog.

Spreading hope and love,

Mirasol Grace

Note: These facts and infos are as of July, 2015. Some information may change in the near future.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Polla Shares: Mary, The Mother Of Jesus

disclaimer: this painting is not mine

When I was just a kid, I was fond of researching and finding answers to a lot of questions. In fact, I made my first blog on friendster (if you still can remember that website, I won't blame you if you don't) and there are bunch of articles in that blog about God, End of the world, love, etc. It is unfortunate that they are all gone now. Afterwards, I decided to make another blog which is named as "threebears.i.ph" with the help of my friend Emjozar. The blog was shut down, so my friend transferred all of my literary pieces in http://pgperez.blogspot.com; and one of my articles in that blog was a short clarification about Mary, the Mother of Jesus Christ. I wrote this article when I was in Junior High School, and published it on my old blog on September 22, 2011.

1 John 1:8-10

“If we say that we have no sin, we deceiving ourselves and the Truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from all the unrighteousness. If we say that we haven’t sinned, we make Him a liar and His word isn’t in us.”

Getting to the point, Mary is not a God - she is just an instrument that God used to bring Jesus Christ into this world to be a mortal (Which means that Jesus isn’t a man, he became a man), but we must respect her - respect, not worship. She was just a sinner/imperfect person like you; she needs a Savior too. How come a God needs a Savior? Think about it. If you are not yet satisfied ‘bout what I say, these are some stuffs that I’ve researched:

She doesn’t have an Immaculate Conception.

How could she conceived without a sin if she needs a redemption herself? (Luke 1:47)

Many respected people had a vision ‘bout Mary’s Immaculate Conception. It includes Bridget of Sweden; however, many popes and nuns had a vision too about it being false, for instance, the Great Italian Mystics, Catherine of Siena. The Roman Catholic Church cited two verses to justify that this dogma is true: Genesis 3:15 and Luke 1:12 - but this verses aren’t enough to prove that Mary is immaculate of her conception. Mary, herself, claimed that whether a person is holy or not, they need a Savior and that is our God and Jesus Christ, our Lord, not her.

These are some verses stated that there are only two Holy:

She is not Perpetual Virgin.

The doctrine of the Perpetual Divinity of Mary was published by the Council of Trent as a reaction to the opposite beliefs of the Protestants. The Church doesn’t want to be scolded at or dictated, wanting to be different even though it is not based on the Holy Bible or worse, against the Word of God.

Many people have their own opinion and beliefs ‘bout Mary’s sons and daughters or shall we call, Jesus Christ’ siblings in flesh. These are some of the debatable theories regarding Mary's perpetual virginity:

Around the year 150, in their content, the brothers and sisters of Jesus Christ found in the bible were turned into stepbrothers and stepsisters from Joseph’s first wife (before Mary).

Saint Ambrose, the first respected and influential person, had a vision about the perpetual divinity of Mary. He stated that Mary never had children after Jesus using a totally unrelated verse of Ezekiel 44:2.

Saint Jerome turned Jesus Christ's stepbrothers and stepsisters into cousins. He insisted that it will be Godless if we will think that Joseph had a first wife before Mary. He also rejected the suggestion in the book of James that Joseph is a widower because he stated that as the Father of the Lord, he should remain pure.

Peter Lombard's book, Four books of Sentences, stated that the brothers of Jesus Christ are the sons of Mary’s cousin.

However, in the present, the Roman Catholic Church said that the brothers and sisters of Jesus Christ aren’t from Mary(Virgin) but from Mary’s sisters: Mary Cleophas and Mary Salom.

The Bible teaches about Mary’s Perpetual Virginity is alter from what the Catholic says.

She is not our Mediator.

Mary is definitely not the mediator between God and man because that title is for Jesus Christ.

Roman Catholic says that Mary is the way for us to know God, but in John 14:6, Jesus says “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.“ which means that what the Catholic says ’bout this issue is altered from what the Bible says. Praying to her for her to pray for us does not make sense either. Can't we pray directly to our Lord? Of course, yes. Hence, there are no reason of asking her to pray for us; in fact, she is resting in peace already. We are required to pray directly to God, and there’s no shortcut or other way to be close to the Father except through our Lord, Jesus Christ.

Reference: The Dark Side of Catholicism

(My researches aren’t done)

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Polla Shares: #FerYhanWedding


Styled by yours truly

Hair & MUA by Kathleen Banas

@mirasolgrace / @pgraceperez

As your maid-of-honor,

Regardless of my age, I will leave three great, not-so-common and factual reminders for your marriage today.

1. A Great Marriage does not wholly depend on the wedding (how grand or simple it was); a great marriage depends on what you do each day. Because marriage is an everyday process – which means there will be up’s and down’s… for the Lord will not promise a flat, easy relationship. He promises that “I will never leave you, nor forsake… Trust me.”

2. A Great Marriage is partially made by a community. Someone said that “it takes a village to raise a child.” Since they are two and soon will be three (or four and more), they will need a community that is composed of family, relatives and friends who will support them not only by financial, but also by all the aspects in life (i.e. emotional and spiritual)

3. A Great Marriage is not a man-made invention; it is God who made it. He said, “Uniquely, I am going to choose one thing in life to show every human being most deeply what’s like for me to love my creation… and that’s marriage.” He chose marriage to reflect who He is in a trinity, serving and loving one another. This will be a great reminder for the both of you when you are having tough times. Always remember that your marriage reflects God’s love for everyone. Unconditional love – for love is not a contract: it is not “do this and I’ll give you this.” Instead, It is a covenant that perfectly shows God’s unconditional love (I will not say perfect love because no one can ever do that, just “unconditional love”) It is like, “I love you right now; I give you grace right now. No matter what happens, I will always be here for you.”

So, when you are almost giving up, remember what God does – He never gives up. The bible shows His unfailing love – even when we rebel, He always do things to rebuild the relationship and to pursue us even more.

Like the Great flood. He did that to reboot everything for us. But we sinned again.

So what He did, He sent His only begotten Son to redeem us. But we spat on His face and killed Him.

But He pursued us again by leaving someone who will guide us (some say that it is called ‘conscience’, but for us it is called the Holy Spirit.)

He loves us so much that He never gives up… and marriage is the greatest way to apply that ‘love’ to someone, your only one. So, just remember the three reminders:

That Marriage is an everyday process That you guys are never alone ( we, as a community, is here for you) That this marriage is a reflection of God’s love.

I am very much grateful to be the matron of honor for my brother's wedding with his ex-girl friend yesterday (July 18, 2015) at the Rosalinda Garden. Despite of the fact that I never got the chance to finish my speech at the ceremony because of the unwanted happenings, I am happy that I have shared one of my simple, special memories with my brother. Thank God for this blog!!!

PS: I'll be posting the short video and photos that I took soon. :)